I’m not sure why I have the desire to start a blog. Maybe it’s the need for a creative outlet.I used to write a lot in my youth. Now I often think about writing, but rarely put the pen to paper. The words just stay in my head. I’m hoping having this blog will inspire me to get the words out and help me find my voice again.
There is a German word that perfectly describes how I feel at this stage in my life: Torschlusspanik. It literally translates to the panic of the door (or gate) being closed. It’s that realization that life is running out and I haven’t done all of the things that I would like to do. I am restless and I have been restless for a long time, but life and responsibilities have kept me mostly grounded for the past 25 years. My desire for adventure and to experience new places and cultures partially explains my chosen field of International Eduction. Of course, being around people from different countries and cultures all the time only compounds my desire to travel and explore the world. I’ve been grounded far too long. I want to go and see the places where my students call home, experience their culture, try their cuisine, hear their music, and attempt their languages. I’m sure I would fail miserably on that last point, but then that would only give me a greater appreciation for how difficult it is for them to come here and take classes in English. (I’m always looking for an excuse to justify traveling to their countries, but so far it hasn’t gotten me anywhere.)